May 18, 2013 by lellielieb
“… imagining that godliness is a means of gain. But godliness with contentment is great gain.” (I Timothy 6)
I used to think that being obedient and pleasing God was the way to get God to give me what I wanted. I wouldn’t have put it as plainly as that, but that is what I believed. I kept the rules and tried to live a godly life so that God would be pleased with me. I believed that if God was pleased, He would make my life lovely. When my life wasn’t lovely I assumed I wasn’t doing enough, so I’d step it up. I would do more for God, I would try to live a holier, purer life. When this still didn’t result in exactly the life I wanted, I got either angry or depressed. Sometimes I was both. I was also bitter.
I didn’t understand that what I really needed to learn was to be content. God had already given me Himself and He is enough. I wish I had learned this earlier, but I am thankful that God was patient and allowed me to finally get this lesson through my thick skull. He is the best teacher and parent of all.