March 6, 2013 by lellielieb
Yesterday in Numbers, I saw something that reminded me of one of my pet peeves–something that irritates me about some other Christians. Today I saw something that convicted me about my own behavior. That’s good, because my own is the only behavior I can change–and then I can only do so by the power of the Holy Spirit.
I read the part of Numbers where Moses sends the spies into the Promised Land. It tells of all the wonders they saw–a cluster of grapes so large it had to be carried by two men, plenty and prosperity every way they looked. It also tells about the obstacles to occupying the land–the huge and scary men that live there. (I think I remember hearing some of them may have had six fingers on each hand.)
Caleb and Joshua say, “It’s great. We can do this! Let’s go in.” The other ten spies say, “No way. Too hard. Too scary.” The ten don’t really have an alternative, all they have to offer is their negativity. In fact, their negative attitudes made it difficult for them to see the good in the land.
“But the men that went up with him said, We be not able to go up against the people; for they are stronger than we.
And they brought up an evil report of the land”
I wish I was like Joshua and Caleb. I wish I really believed that all things are possible with God, but I don’t. I have a tendency to see the negative side of things, the obstacles, the scary possibilities. Like the ten negative spies, I forget that I have God and that He throws the balance of every equation to His side. Having God does not mean everything will be easy. Sometimes He wants us to learn from the tough stuff. Still, if He is asking me to do a thing, He has a reason that will work out for His glory. It all comes down to trust. I’m learning, but I have a long way to go. Like the ten spies, I look at the giant problems in my life and shake my head far too often, and while I’m thinking about the giants I forget the blessings. Since I don’t have forty more years to spend wandering in the wilderness of distrust, I had better learn my lesson. I am asking God to help me be like Caleb and Joshua. I know He will.